I might be too old and too damaged to ever truly experience my desires, but I want to know, just for myself, just for the record, which way I am tilted. I don't know if this Outreach thing can help me, but with their science and their skills they can tell me the kind of man I could have been, the kind of love I could have had, and there is some comfort in that. There is this need inside me that I never explored and then the trauma denied me the freedom to even consider it. It's easy to blame it on my service, to be that PTSD veteran, but it's more than that. I've not been doing great for a long time. I'm revising this story, and I'm going to learn everything The Outreach has to offer. It's making me feel all kinds of stupid about how I've played in the past, and all kinds of fascinated for how to scene in the future. It seems these guys actually know what they are talking about, and what they are saying is resonating inside me on a primal level. MAL When my boss sent me on this assignment I thought I was writing a fluff piece, a sly little dig at the newest psychobabble trend to hitch itself to the "discover yourself" gravy train. Some see it as a green light for deviancy, for others it's their last chance to understand why they want the things they want. It's brand new and causing waves, politically and socially. Could this be mutually beneficial? This is The Outreach, where the kink curious can have their desires analysed, their cravings explained, and if they are lucky, find the right kind of someone to meet their needs.
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